Hello, I’m Haven.
As you’ve probably already guessed by joining me here, I struggle with Borderline Personality Disorder. This blog is the documentation of my struggle, my self-awareness, the information I gather and the understanding I hope to provide. My world is, different. It’s a challenge. To most people that know me, not only do I appear to live a double life, but it feels like I live 3 or 4; shifting depending on the situation and how my very volatile moods may swing. An angel and a devil (without the funny Christian connotations), I am both, often at the same time; one big ball of tumbled craze, rage, and ecstasy.
I have struggled with this disorder and the co-morbid symptoms and signs I display for most of my life. Finally, finally, I have chosen to seek help to stop the hurting, internally and externally. Sometimes my thoughts are calculated and cool, others they whirl and race, I hope that what time you spend with me will be informative and inspirational. The symbol of my journey I have imprinted on my body. As mentioned over at My Own Private Idaho ( thank you for the lovely write up I very much appreciate it!) you can read about the very real dedication I have come to embrace in my life which I represent in permanent ink. Like my journey, it is a work in progress. I am not what you call conventional, by any means.
Nothing by halves. Take the world by the throat and wring all the life out of it you can. You only get the one.
Welcome. Thank you for joining me.