Thoughts from the Borderline

I’m better at taking care of other people than I am at taking care of myself. This is a problem. I put what other people’s wants ahead of what I want about 99% of the time.  Unfortunately this only contributes to the buildup of frustration and anger in me. I need to seek more of a balance from the beginning so this internal pressure doesn’t get to the popping point.
Live and learn.
On another note. I haven’t had a meltdown like I did last night in a very long time. I’ve been making a lot of progress this year. I guess a behavioral relapse now and again isn’t unexpected. Three steps forward, one stumble back. I just have to regain my footing and get back in the right direction.
I cancelled lunch with Tech Boy. No issues, no drama, just told him I wasn’t feeling up to it today.
I told Friend to leave me the hell alone. I don’t know how long this will last. I’m sure he’ll want to talk at some point. I’m not sure I’ll want to respond. Maybe after I cool down a bit, but definitely not right now.

Therapy is going to be awesome tonight. Ugh.